asking god who i'm suppose to be

Listen to this song-- DREAM by priscilla ahn.

Still searching...

...for the perfect job. I've finally come to the realization that I'll end up where my Heavenly Father wants me to be. I just hope that when the right job does come around, I won't accidently pass it up. I've had several interviews (some I have completely BOMBED...very embarrassing) over the past couple weeks and I got a job offer today. Halle...freakin'...luja. I'm still trying to decide if it's the right job. I have two options on the table right now and they are completely opposite of each other. I need help deciding.

Seminar Specialist at Ultradent--I'd market, coordinate and set up continuing education seminars for dentist around the US and fun places.

Pros:
-I'd get to travel.
-It pays well. (I can maybe pay off some freakin debt)
-I'd put my hard earned education to use.
-It incorporates everything I'm interested in. (The creative part of marketing and event coordinating)
-Get a company phone and credit card. (I'd feel like a hoity toity (sp?) New York career woman)
-Work with a fun group of girls. (I like making new friends)

Cons:
-I'd be traveling all the time. (When would I meet my future hunky husband?)
-I'd be very, very busy. (stressed...leads to weight gain)
-I'd be working ALL the time. (I'm naturally a lazy person)
-I'd have to do a little public speaking and on occasion have to wine and dine the seminar speaker all by myself. (This really scares me)
-I won't know if I got the job until next WEDNESDAY.

Secretary at a nonprofit law firm--I'd basically be filing, mailing and copying documents for a group of lawyers.

Pros:
-They offered me the job. I have to tell them TOMORROW if I want it or not.
-The job comes with really great benefits. (a ton of paid vacation and sick time)
-It's a very low key, non-stressful atmosphere. (I could wear jeans to work)
-Work would just be a job and not a lifestyle.
-Gives me a chance to relax and not worry about school or work. (Lose some freakin' weight)

Cons:
-The job pays less than what I make right now.
-I can see myself getting bored.
-I'd have to drive downtown.
-I feel like it might be a step backwards rather than forewards.
-I'd might have to get a second job to make ends meet.

So, do you see my dilemma?? Should I hold out for the sexy, glamorous, high stressful job that I don't know if I even have the chance of getting? OR Do I take a paycut and go with the easy, non-stressful job that I actually know that I have? Is this an easy decision? Ugh. I'm confused. What's new?

Whelp...looks like I'll be spending some time on my knees! I'm hoping I can get some insider information from my SIL Marci who works at Ultradent to help me make the desicion.

What would you choose?

Anyways, on a less boring note...or this could be just as boring. Has anyone ever tried edamame? I'm obsessed. It really doesn't taste like much so it's not the taste I'm obsessed with. I think it's the action of sucking the little beans out of the pod. I'm weird, but if you haven't tried it, you should. It just so happens to be really healthy too. Wow, this blog is random. I actually had two bowls of this for dinner tonight AND because it's so healthy I thought I'd offset it with chips and queso and chewy, chocolate chip cookies. YUM


**It's late and my spell checker isn't working and I like to say words in my head and forget to actually type them. So, sorry if this doesn't make any sense.

As promised...

More sexy guys to stare at!

I need to apologize for being such a lame blogger or lack of blogger lately. My life is suddenly CRAZY. I'm in the process of looking for a new job (which scares the poop right out of me). It has been a long time coming (so you'd think I'd be better prepared) but I know it is the right thing to do. My anxiety which is usually around a level 2 or 3 is now 26! However...staring at this picture has now brought it down to a level 11.5. *Sigh*...hairy...chests...so...relaxing...teehee. For reals though, I've learned getting a great job is basically based on "who you know." SO team, I need some hook ups. I do have a couple interviews set up that look promising. So in order for me to prepare, please ask me your favorite interview question. Thanks a bunch!

I'm frustrated

SAY WHAT?

I know, I know...how could I feel frustrated when it's the season of Christmas joy? I dunno...but I do.

Frustration leads to venting (I'm wondering why I am writing this so EVERYONE can see it, maybe someone has some good advice for me???)

Well, I'm coming to the end of a very trying year and four months. Yes, I'm just about finished with school. Don't get me wrong...I'm SO happy this is over and done with . But here's why I'm frustrated: You'd think I'd know what I'd want to do with my life! Yep! I'm just as confused today as I was a year and four months ago. PSST. In my dream world I was hoping I would find my future hunky husband my last semester of school, get married in the spring, have a honeymoon baby and never have to work a real job again.

** Caution: In the following sentences I'm whining in a really high pitched voice**

Because life never goes as planned...I now have to figure out WHAT COMES NEXT. What does come next? I'll tell you what comes next...huge life decisions! Decisions, that will hopefully get me to my Happily Ever After. Deep down I know everything will work out. I'll find that job I'll tap dance to every morning, I'll find a really good guy/best friend to spend forever with and I'll have ridiculously cute babies BUT until then I guess I'm a little scared and confused. Life!

Just in case dreams really DO come true, I gotta put this out there. Matthew...YOU...com...plete...ME!

HELP WANTED!

Need new CRUSH! (The last one is so OVER) Applicants who wish to apply must possess these qualities:

1. No temper
2. Makes me laugh.
3. Thinks I'm all that...and a bag of chips.